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I am a rebellious girl living in my own world.
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explore my little world of defiance.

Everybody has a secret world inside of them.
All of the people of the world.
No matter how dull and boring they are on the outside, inside them they’ve all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds.
Not just one world.
Hundreds of them.
Thousands maybe.
So don't judge, listen closely to what everyone has to say about them.
Maybe you'll find a something different, something unique behind every story told.
Smile, take a picture, forgive freely, laugh till your stomach hurts, kiss passionately, because life is unpredictable and it gives no second chance.
Live life to fullest & make sure live with no regrets. most importantly, LOVE LIFE.

Ok so hey! I have been so busy with life that I almost forgot the core reason as to why I started blogging. Right, so I should really remind myself once more. It is actually to improve my writing! YES, WRITING. and I am turning nineteen *shameful face* I'm not very proud of my language.. really. So something gonna be done in order to gain fluency, huh? :) and what do they say? Language is not something you can achieve overnight. It take years. So? Let the effort continues.

Today, I have done ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. except watching Gossip Girl and eating. I felt so tired of moving, and I also felt that I needed to binge because I had a depressing Saturday. Stupid amazing race is stupid. I know the committee members has put a lot of efforts in preparing it but really, it wasn't great at all. The only task that I felt was actually brilliant, is the first task. I think that person should be given an award because he or she might be the only person who is actually committed into making this race happen. The stupid guy in grey and wears a fake black framed spec without lens? I absolutely do not like him because he simply ruined our mood by disappearing from the station and made my team waited for like 15 minutes! Hello? It's a race.

Moving on. I was just sitting here, thinking about what have I done during my time in college? and then I realized, that I have achieved nothing. Besides to have been so lucky and met a group of awesome friends.. I have achieved almost nothing in college. I had jobs, here and there. I joined activities, from one to another. But nothing really makes me super excited. I was just pretending to be excited because it kept me occupied. The only thing that I was really excited about was... prom? Right, prom. But what does that mean to me..? I don't know.. I had the time of my life that night. Everything was so perfect. I'm so glad that I met these group of friends, that are so important and so dear to me.. they are basically family already.

omgosh what have I done.. this post has gradually became so emotional! Yeah I think I am an emotional person. People are calling me "emo" now. oh damn...

Good Night, I will shower tomorrow morning byebye. :B

So my friends and I attended David Guetta's Concert yesterday night at the Sepang International Circuit. It was AWESOME! Well, I was being a kid for wanting to go inside the middle so badly but was being controlled. Alas, I got my way in the middle by myself and honestly, HAD THE TIME OF MY LIFE. It is actually not that bad dancing and partying around people that you don't know. Trust me, people in a concert are the friendliest. It has gotten so hot after a good 45 minutes and then I decided to move out of the crowd. Almost wanted to take my top off! Note to self, wear as little as possible for concert. 

This is definitely a blog between you and I. Now that I think back in time, I've used to relied on this blog hoping that it will send the message to you (because I know you'd stalk read my blog, haha). It is kind of stupid, right? Why would any normal, healthy couple communicate through a blog. But I had to say, I enjoyed writing about you and everything else that has happened between us. It's like little diary that I just had to fill in something everyday. You were basically my everything so I had no other choice! I guess this site kind of serve as a history book of both of our relationship? hahaha

And I am SO, SO, SO SORRY about ALL OF MY GRAMMAR ERROS in the past.. they were horrrrrrible!!!!! :( Sorry. I know I was bad. Actually, I think my grammar still sucks big time. SIGH

I miss you :) in a good way. Your voice, your dreamy eyes, absolutely handsome face, excellent singing, great language skills, and your stunning smile. I miss them all, I hope the next girl deserves all of your great qualities better than me.

I guess we both learnt something from our past huh? Even though we may not talk as much anymore, you will always have a special space in my heart. They say first love is the hardest to forget, and most of the time, it's bittersweet.

everybody leaves.

They say that they care, they say that they'll never ever leave you, they give you a promise, they made you trust them; but at the end of the day, everybody leaves. They break their promises, they give you a thousand excuses, they start packing their stuff and leaves you crying behind. You dare to say you never hurt the one you love or the one who loves you? Because everyone has done the same. And nobody ever learn the lesson. They continue hurting more people and continue giving more false hope to the pathetic life.

Why? That's the way life is. You just gotta make the best out of it. Sometimes, we can't help it but cry about it because it hurts right in your guts, causing you hard to breathe, and sometimes feels like there's something strangling your neck. Life is bitter sometimes. But when it is sweet, make sure you capture the moment and put it in your album. Because it worth so much more to remember something sweet than a bitter ones, don't you think so? Even if you decided to keep some of the bitterness, it shouldn't be something that holds you back, you should insert caption like these "what makes me better today". The people who has once stayed in your life, the fairy tale that you have lived in once, the sweetest apple you've eaten once... the one you thought who would be by your side forever? eventually.. disappeared.

But you gotta hope for the best. Always.

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I totally lost my direction. I lost you, I lost myself, I lost my motivation to keep fighting. I lost everything, I miss our laughs, I miss our endless phone calls, I miss our good memories, I want it all back. There, I cried again. I'm that sensitive right now. I'm that fragile right now. I'm that different right now. What can you do about it? When I myself don't like myself. NO, I do not like this me. This sadistic girl, who constantly looking for distraction just to distract herself from her own thoughts. Just as sad as it sounds like, she's a crying soul searching for a home. I wish I could be stronger, so I could take more shit. Sadly I am just another typical girl, I cry I breakdown I am weak sometimes. I can't handle this, I can't handle this self-infliction. That's why I escape. escape to the world where it doesn't involve you. Pathetic? I know. I wish I was stronger. I really do wish so. I want to be able to listen to all your stories, everything. But as soon as I hear more details, I get jealous, I get annoyed, I get irritated, I get insecure, I get stupid. That's my problem. 

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